All these dreams of mine

I have so many dreams and there are so many things that I want to do, but I always get in my own way.  I honestly think my worst problem is procrastination.  It’s pure evil, I tell you.  With the start of my new job drawing nearer and nearer, I feel like now I will have the time to do all these things I’ve put off and never made time for.  But I’m afraid that I will just do what I always do; either procrastinate and never do it, or actually get so far to start but never finish.

I have this urge to take up French again. I started classes a whole bunch of years ago, but dropped them because I wasn’t putting in the time and now all I remember are some silly phrases and the odd word here and there.  On top of  that I really want to learn to speak Zulu as well.

I absolutely have the ability to do this and to learn it well, I know I do, but for some reason I just cannot stay motivated or use my time to my best advantage.  I think I should just take a time management course and then start working on all these things.  I hate being this failure and wasting my time with silly things and bad tv.  It’s time for me to start living up to my potential!

Interviews and expectations

Last week I went for an interview for a new job as an After Hours Consultant.  I’m quite excited about this position as it means I will work less hours a week and I will not have to deal with the endless re-quotes and changes that I am currently sitting with.  It will be a high pressure job as we will be mostly dealing with urgent requests and fixing mistakes made by the day-time staff, but I am used to high pressure work with the demanding clients I have been working with.  Even though it is shift work, which can get a bit tough, it is not unreasonable hours and I will have my days free, which means more time to study and do the things I never seem to get around to doing.  The only other concern I have is that it is based in Midrand, which means I will be driving further, but I will be driving against traffic, so it should not be that bad.

My first interview went really well; I liked the 2 ladies who interviewed me (one of which is the after-hours call-center Team Leader) and it was a very long, but relaxed interview.  I also had to do assessment tests which was no hassle for me at all.  At the end of the morning, I left with a “we will let you know next week if you made the short list”.  Imagine my surprise and ecstasy when about 2 hours after the interview I received a call telling me they really like me and I must please come in on the 19th for a final interview.  I was also told that I did exceptionally well on my assessment test, which is great as I finished in about half the allotted time.

So now I can barely contain my excitement and am holding thumbs that all will go well and that by next week I will know whether I have an exciting new job.

Reverb11 Day 18 – Lets do lunch

Lets do lunch! – If you could have lunch with anybody, who would it be  and what would you like to discuss?h 

If I could do lunch with anybody, I think I will choose Princess Dianna.  She has always been my idol, and to me she will remain the most beautiful woman in the world.  When I was a little girl I used to have a scrapbook with cut out’s of all the her and all the gorgeous outfits she used to wear.

If I could have lunch with Princess Dianna, I would do the whole girly thing; we can have finger snacks and champagne in her dressing room and go through all her clothes and jewelry, cause let’s face it, for a little girl, being a princess is all about the clothes and jewels.  She can tell me all about the places she wore those fabulous gowns to and the people she met in them.  That would be the best day in my life

I’m a material girl

Hi, I’m Joan and I am a material girl.  What can I say, I love things and I love having things and I want lots and lots of beautiful things.  I can’t help it, it’s just who I am.  

Moving has definitely brought out the worst in me.  I am in a new place, living alone for the first time in 2 years, the new place has been freshly painted and now I want fresh, sparkly new things to fill it with.   I want to do my lounge in black and red, and have gone to buy my brand new black Manhattan sleeper couch to start off the new lounge.  I’m so excited! I cant wait for it to be delivered!  Then I want to big, wing back chairs, a black fluffy area rug and red scatter pillows for my chairs, with red vases and a beautiful corner lamp!  And I have seen some of the things I want, but at the moment I just cannot afford them all.  

As it is, I have been purchasing some things on my credit card budget facility, just so I won’t actually see the money I spend on my credit card!  It’s like what I don’t see, does not exist, but at some stage I will have to face reality (and that super shocking credit card bill).  

For now I am just dreaming of all these beautiful things and trying to make my December bonus (which is never a given in this company) go 3 times around the world.

Itching for more ink

Lately I have got it into my head that I want a full back tattoo (and then possible a full body artwork), but mostly that is just wishful thinking.  I am however planning / dreaming about my next tattoo and have spent hours on the web looking for ideas and inspiration.  My favourite site so far is Fuck yeah, Tattoos.  People seriously get some strange / beautiful / interesting tattoos done.  I’ve saved some of my favourite tattoos on my Pinterest Tattoo Board.

So far, I have 1 tattoo of a chameleon on my right ankle.  I had it done 2 years ago and I still love it.  Then I wanted a butterfly behind my left ear, but haven’t been able to decide exactly how I want it done.  After spending hours and hours looking at other people’s tattoos, I now want to start with something down my spine on my back.  I’m thinking something soft and feminine with blossoms or flowers on.  But, if I eventually get the full back done I have to plan the whole thing right from the start; I cannot have a bunch of random tattoos floating around my back, and that is where the problem comes in (that and of course the cost of tattoos and there’s my little fear of needles that is still as strong as ever).

I have no idea what I would want to do, but when I think about getting another tattoo, I get this yearning in the pit of my stomach.  I”m giving myself until the end of the year to make up my mind, and am planning on getting my new tattoo early in 2012.  I really hope I can get the perfect design by then.