Reverb11 Day 28 – 31

Day 28    Forgiveness – What one thing do you need to forgive yourself for this year?

I have to forgive myself for my procrastination and laziness.  I could have achieved so much more this year if I just got started or in some cases pushed through the difficult bits.  There is nothing worse than knowing you are to blame for your failures and that you could have done better.

Day 29   Shaking Things Up – Looking towards 2012, what can you do to shake things up a little next year?

I don’t like spontaneity, I love planning things in advance.  In 2012, I am going to act on my impulses more often.  If I feel like doing something fun, I am going to do it and not over analyze everything.  It’s time to start having more fun and doing more things that I haven’t done before

Day 30    3 Wishes – If a genie could grant you 3 wishes for 2012, what would they be?  

1. To have enough money to enjoy my life and not to live from paycheck to paycheck
2. Happiness.  I want happiness in all it’s forms no matter how small or trivial it might seem to others
3. I want the strength to accomplish everything I want, to reach the goals I’ve set myself and to be the person I want to be.  I want to be able to make the difficult decisions with certainty and to make things work for me no matter how bad or hopeless they seem.

Day 31    Reflect – Take a moment to think back on your Reverb11 responses.  Have you learned anything?  What surprised you about this experience?  Which of your responses was your favourite?

Looking back over my Reverb11 posts, I am genuinely shocked about how negative and dark my year was and how few positive things I had to say about it.  I am also shocked that I made it through such a horrible year and that at the end of it, after reflection, I am trying to be positive and enthusiastic for the new year.

I think my most shocking, yet favourite response to Reverb11 was for Day 30, where I (the most materialistic person I know) wished for strength and happiness in stead of tons of Jimmy Choo’s and Louise Vuitton handbags (seriously, these items are on my all time life affirming wish list).  I guess it made me realise that I do actually know what is important in life, but I won’t mind doing it while being fabulously accesorised.

Welcome to 2012

I love quiet new year celebrations and this year I went away for the weekend with my BFF, her husband and some of their friends. It was so nice to break away and I seriously wished we could have spend some more days there. I love the quiet and really should go away more often.

I also really love Jan 1st. For me it’s such a none day. It’s the day you recover from the celebrations from the previous year and the day before the real new year starts.

I am making 2012 a year for myself and it will be a year of new beginnings. I’m looking forward to a good year and really hope its filled with rainbows. I can definitely use some rainbows.

Reverb11 Day 9 – Disappointment

Disappointment – What was the one disappointment that has turned out to   be a blessing in the last 12 months? How will this affect how you deal with disappointment in the future?

I think the biggest disappointment looking back at 2011, was the lost opportunities.  I have said no to so many invitations and opportunities simply because I didn’t have the energy to deal with people or didn’t feel like driving far or going out at all.  I supposed that if I had not simply stopped doing fun or new things, this year might not have been the absolute worst year ever.  On the other hand, they say things happen for a reason, so maybe I needed to go through all this, to learn to be stronger.

If there is one think I am taking from 2011′s disappointments, I think it will have to be to say yes a bit more in 2012.  Even if I don’t feel like doing something, half the time it turns out to be real fun and absolutely worth it.  I am going to try and be more balanced and organised during 2012, and try to do new things as often as possible.